miss stina

If I could draw you
I'd use up all the colors
Just trying
To draw who you are.

If I could read your mind
I'd cover the entire map
Just trying
To find out where your mind has been before.

If I could see things through your eyes
I'd stare back at myself
Just trying
To know how you see me.

If I could sing for you
I'd never run out of breath
Just trying
To make you hear me.

I could draw you
Sing for you
See how you do.
I could love you
Understand you
And only you.

But nothing compares,
To hearing the same
From you,
Just trying,
To tell me
That you feel it too...

Come up to meet you,

why does it always have to be like this?

thought i could keep my cool but i can't.

Maybe I should've started this assignment a little bit earlier. Or maybe I just shouldn't have tried so hard to avoid it! It's now 2:30am and I've added 10 words onto it in the past 5 hours...I'm really too delirious to keep going. I think I thrive off stress, but I don't actually accomplish anything at all when I'm stressed. I just run around in circles stressing about how much I have to do. Which is not good, like now for instance, I'm blogging about how tired I am when I should really just go to sleep.

I'm in such a mellow mood tonight

Been looking back through my old posts- God I loved to complain!

Didn't realise that finding oneself involved so much...negativity

It's alright
I will learn to be in a better place

I got pasted at work today by a man who wanted a further discount off a $9 t-shirt. A $9 t-shirt. Normally things at Rodd&Gunn don't even come close to being $9, and I had tightass of the century bugging me to take another 30% off. What is wrong with people these days?

My way of looking at it is. When you are on your deathbed, thinking over what you have done in your life, are you going to be proud of that time you harrassed a salesgirl into giving you a $9 shirt for only $7? It won't exactly seem like the best way to have spent your time, would it?

I don't know why people are so nit-picky nowadays. Everyones angry over something or other, and for no good reason. Everybody just seems to be complaining all the time. Well I complain a lot too, but would I complain about things like a $9 t-shirt? OK for example, everyones dissing Kevin Rudd because he had an angry outburst at a flight attendant on a plane. For God's sake, does it really matter? He lost his temper, and the last time I checked, we have ALL lost our tempers before! He's only Australia's Prime Minister, he's not Ghandi! Why do we kick up a massive fuss over shit like this, when Kevin Rudd has done WAY more important things, such as vowing to 'move heaven and earth' to improve Australia's economy? The poor guy can't win, he's giving us $900 worth of free money (that stingy guy could buy 100 tshirts!) and we're sitting here hanging poo-poo on him because he yelled at a flight attendant! Jeeeeez, the guy is trying to run a country (not to mention, a country full of COMPLAINERS), you'd think he'd be a little stressed out and short-tempered, wouldn't anyone?

I'm starting to really dread reading newspapers such as the Herald Sun, or watching Channel 10 news, because all I keep seeing are images of doom and gloom, murders, arson, kidnap the whole shebang, things which are not actual news... the Australian public are completely underinformed on topics such as recession or inflation, yet everybody is clued up on Fritzl, the Austrian guy who kept his daughter as a sex slave for 24 years! And everytime I watch the news, there is at least one shot of a little old lady clutching her purse at the shops saying "It's just disgraceful" or "It's just appalling" or "I'm just absolutely shocked" about some irrelevant topic or other! And to top it all off, the news finishes with some story about a new baby animal in the zoo or some kindergardener doing cute stuff, and then goes straight to 30 minutes of pure, hardcore sports tonight! What do we even learn from watching the news, apart from how to blame politicians for everything and what murders/deaths have occurred when/where in the past 24 hours?

Anyway, that rant went on for MUCH longer than expected. I only initially intended to post some stuff that makes me happy when I'm feeling a little deflated:

1. The Hey Jude baby. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNHLywCfnHI
This baby is basically the best baby ever. It's asian, it sings, it says 'berrer' instead of better and it knows the Beatles. AND it can hold up an adult sized guitar! This baby could cheer me up forever.

2. Everything by The Lonely Island, like The 'Bu. Everything these guys make is funny!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKMesCAe44Q&feature=PlayList&p=670CCE81C6D7F669&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=8

3. The smell of the ground just after it's rained.

4. All my homemade CD's (minus the ones I made when I was going through a metalhead phase)

5. Waz at my front door.

Give me ten minutes
To look at my life
Let me give you a list
Of what I came up with

I got a conscience somewhere
But it's trapped inside
I got a problem with drink
I like to underthink

Give me ten seconds
And I'll decide
What's wrong or right
What's black and white

Love makes a fool
Out of you and I
So just think twice
About playing nice...

Because all these dreams make a better me
All these dreams just make a better me
I want to believe that you can't see
The worst of me
The worst of me